
Is Jimbo a member of Fortune?
Filmed yesterday with Kevin, Big Al, Mark & Jimbo. It was Kevin’s Birthday so I was happy that he would stay after work to film. He only had about 15-20 minutes so our scenes had to be preplanned and quickly executed. We ended up deciding on 4 scenes that we will build an episode around.
Got pissed at Jimbo for continually coming into a scene when there was no reason to. We had the scene ending with “door slams in billy’s face” and Jimbo kept going back outside over and over. How can a scene with a door shutting be effective if the door keeps opening? EXACTLY. Anyways, that little annoyance aside, the filming went ok at best. We need to figure out how to relax when we film. Big Al gets particularly anxious with dialogue and usually jumps right to the end. Didn’t happen this time as we ended up in some sort of verbal holding pattern and just treaded water without any reasonable end in sight.
It was the 2 year anniversary of the death of my Mother-in-Law yesterday. My wife was sad. I don’t blame her, I have no way of knowing how she feels as both my parents are still alive. But I feel in hindsight that I should have tried to be more compassionate in comforting her.
I tend to have early morning regret. I wake up and suddenly feel like I see the previous night more clearly and I always feel like I could or should have done something different. This only seems to happen on weekdays. On weekends I sleep poorly and just don’t have the same regrets. I don’t get it.
Gonna try and be more honest here and post more frequently. Hopefully no one will even find this blog and I can just use it as a journal. Big Al is calling…hold. Nothing important.
I have a hard time NOT being an asshole when I get annoyed. Shocking, I know.
ABG,
Joel Henderson